The word "Sorry"

Sorry - feeling regret, compunction, sympathy

How powerful IS the word "sorry"?
When you say sorry, does the recipient appreciate the torment and courage you mustered to apologise? Will things really be resolved and reset from scratch?
Does the recipient understand the intense emotional trauma before one says the word "sorry"?

Sorry carries with it a sense of hope and fear.
Hope because you hope it will take all unhappiness, discomfort and anger away.
Fear because you fear it will backfire and you now have to accept the certainty of the anger.

It's even an intricate decision-making process simply because of the extremities of the possible outcomes.

Ignorance is bliss

The more you know, the less you feel.
I saw this on my friend's email signature... and it isn't right.

It's the other way around. The less you know, the less you feel.
They say ignorance is bliss. I know, for sure, that is true.

Someone hand me a prescription for happy pills...

A Happy Birthday to Ms Mak and for her awesome piece of poetry... really touched for this! See the poem she wrote for me!

Last weekend

My last weekend here has been fruitful. Not neccessarily all good here, it was also a ride on an emotional and most intense rollercoaster.

No details here, but I just want to say how grateful I am to the people who have talked to me and trying to knock sense into me, and simply for being there.

I am one big emotional sook, but this makes me real too.
I never learn from my mistakes... and am still learning this valuable way of conduct.

Despite having an emotional weekend, I am glad it turned out alright and I am feeling reasonably at ease.